The thing is: everyone expects you to be fine and OK all the time, and you expect it of yourself, too. But you can’t be fine all the time. It’s just not possible.
I don’t feel worthless or that everything is hopeless. I just haven’t felt myself for awhile. I’ve been finding it difficult to be positive. And not for lack of trying. I’m not reacting to issues or conflicts at the office as well as I could do. Plus, bad sleep, difficulty in concentrating, general malaise. I’m staying in more, preferring to go for long periods of time without socialising or talking to friends. A couple of Saturdays ago, I stayed in my pyjamas until 7pm.
I’m not quite a basket case. But I’m not as shiny as I can be.
Anyway. Help’s on the way. But I have a lot of work to do. I have to help myself, too. Doctor’s orders:
(1) Relaxation; (2) Exercise (at least 1.5 hours a week); (3) Fresh simple food; and (4) Talking/confiding in someone on a regular/weekly basis
Out of all of those, (4) will be the toughest.